thirty-nine.

bye byeeeeee

thirty-eight.

I'm not sure of anything but my love for you.

thirty-seven.

For real.

thirty-six.

Fuck everyone.

thirty-five.

Haven't been writing much. It's not good for me I don't think, but I just haven't had the time, well, I really haven't had the energy is more like it.

Things are rocky to put it simply. My sweet and I are up and down, up and down all the time. We're going on vacation for two weeks to Maine in August though, and I'm hoping it will help us work things out. Hopefully it'll ease some tention and relax us a little bit. Plus we'll be spending all the time together so I'm interested to see how that goes. We've never spent more then 24 hours together, so spending two solid weeks is a change. The 13the of August is our one year anniversary. Hoo-rah.

Someone showed me that today for some fucking reason. And for some other reason, it hurt.

Pretty bad.

Worse then it should have.

thirty-four.

I haven't written in a while and it's really getting to me!

I will later though.

I'm going out with a cute german boy now. :D

<3

thirty-three.

I MADE CUPCAKES. : D YAY

thirty-two.

I had a really sexual dream about my ex girlfriend last night.

What. The. Fuck.

thirty-one.

I spent last night with my love.

Amazing on so many levels, I'll talk about it more later.

......

As you can see I coloured my hair aswell.

Text me if you like.

thirty.

LOL at my smile. :( God.

twenty-nine.

I'm making these today! :D Picture when I'm done.

twenty-eight.

I don't know what I've done, or if I like what I've begun.
But something told me to run, and honey you know me it's all or none.

There were sounds in my head, little voices whispering that I should go and this should end.
Oh and I found myself listening.

Cause I dont know who I am, who I am without you; all I know is that I should.
And I don't know if I could stand anothers hand upon you; all I know is that I should.
Cause she will love you more than I could, she who dares to stand where I stood.

See I thought love was black and white, that it was wrong or it was right.
But you ain't leaving without a fight, and I think I am just as torn inside.

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call.
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all.
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you, this is what I have to do.

Cause I dont know who I am, who I am without you; all I know is that I should.
And I don't know if I could stand anothers hand upon you; all I know is that I should.
Cause she will love you more than I could, she who dares to stand where I stood.

twenty-seven.

I went out walking around with a full packed bowl in my pocket.
And NO ONE, I mean NO ONE, would smoke with me.
I asked like twenty people.
I hate smoking alone so I ended up not getting to smoke.
Maybe today though if Nano comes over.